Autumn Raindrops

They say that fall
is a season for poets
when afternoon warmth
has tussled its way
through morning frost
When the seasons change
from light to darkness
when the rays of sunshine
are no more taken
for granted

In autumn
I no longer fear
to be seen
in black attire
when the leaves turn
to a golden brown
when the purple slice
of a heaven
painted into the horizon
promises to one day return
to remove me
from the season’s shades
and wash me again
in her bright colors

For all the happily blinded

The fire in my heart
would only wish
to burn through the elation in your eyes
to engulf with flames
the bones holding you together
if only for a second

They say fire is a natural element
one that can strike just as fast
as the earth, wind or water

Sometimes I wonder
if the scattering sparks
shooting off my body
understand the rules of flight
before they take aim
into the unsuspecting
with the inaccuracy
of cupid’s arrows

A man on fire
is often as blind as the hands of justice
wishing for nothing but oxygen
to reach him
before he can yet again
safely open his eyes

Are you with us?

When Jackson finally fell, he fell hard. In the middle of the train station, below the escalators and between the sliding door and marble pillars, Jackson tumbled onto the freshly mopped, shining stone floor. There was little to hold onto, his fingers clutching at the air as he counted the seconds to his unfortunate landing. He was in his sixties, his balance deteriorating alongside his eyesight.

He lay helpless as people walked through by the dozens into their afternoon lives. Finally, a young woman stopped and tried to help Jackson up before realizing he was bleeding. He curled up like a ball, the shock of his fall refusing to allow pain into the gash across his forehead.

“I’ve called an ambulance. They should be here soon.” the woman said to Jackson, who was clutching a tissue handed by a passerby across his forehead.
“There’s nothing we can do,” Jackson heard a man say.
“So sad,” A woman said as she walked by.
“Doesn’t look good. The guy looks quite old, too,” he heard another passerby mutter.

Jackson lay back down, covering his eyes and forehead with his arm. He was seeing little flashes of light and his ears closed to the sounds around him. He looked down at his blood covered hands before he crawled up into a ball again.

He awoke to a hand shaking him across the shoulder. A large crowd had gathered, and paramedics had arrived. A few young people were filming the incident on their phones.
“Looks like I’m a celebrity now,” Jackson said jokingly, the blood rushing to his head as he sat up.
“Hey, hey, are you with us?” a medic asked coldly. “What is your name?”
“Jackson Atherton,” Jackson replied without hesitation.
“How did you fall?” the medic asked.
“I don’t really know,” he replied. “I must have lost my balance.”
“We’re going to take you to the hospital to make sure it’s nothing serious,” the medic stated firmly.
“I don’t have insurance. I can’t afford ambulances. Women and ambulances,” Jackson said. The medics stared at him blankly. They whispered to each other with their backs turned when Jackson suddenly stood up, covered in blood and ready to leave. The crowd stepped back alarmed.
“You can’t leave. You have to come with us,” the medic said again.
“Who will pay for this?” Jackson asked. He thought of running away but he knew he wouldn’t get far in his condition.
“You’ll figure something out,” the medics took Jackson by the arm.

People applauded, and Jackson smiled as they walked away.
“Told you I’m a celebrity.”, he said to the medics.
“Maybe your new-found fame can help pay for your troubles,” the medics replied dryly before loading him into the ambulance.

Business as usual

He would appear every couple of days, wheeling his produce cart through our little alleyways. I would hear him shouting and from inside the house, I would run to the window to watch him work. The grandmothers, wives and maidservants would rush outside and purchase their usual quota of bananas, apples, and other necessities. It was easier to buy our fruits and vegetables from him than to visit the corner store, where fresh items were hard to come by.

He would bring vegetables on Tuesdays and fruits on Thursdays. When he didn’t show, sometimes for a few days at a time, he was scolded by the neighborhood women only for them to be reminded that he had to visit his hometown further off inside the country a few times each year. I always wanted to know where he went when he disappeared, where he was originally from, and what he would do on his vacations, but I never had the courage to do more than embarrassingly buy fruits and vegetables from his carts. He was a man of few words, focused on his sales, and I could not imagine hindering from our usual script.

As time wore on, so did his cart. He usually made little fixes and changes to the old wood but kept the cart covered, choosing to display his amenities instead. In the summer, he would bring ripe mangoes but often, he would have only a few left as he reached the back end of our neighborhood. During the monsoon, he would appear in a raincoat, gently lifting the plastic tarp to exhibit the seasonal delights. Sometimes, we tried our best to mimic his howling with the other kids, but we would just end up in tears of laughter within seconds. We could never truly attain the high pitch and accompanying authority required to stir the neighborhood.

By the beginning of the 21st century, there were big changes on the horizon. Supermarkets appeared, new high rises were constructed, and shops were revamped and retooled one after the other. Food was being delivered home, grocery stores were modernized to look like Anytown, USA, and marketing was fiercer and more competitive than ever.

He showed less and less over the weeks and months until eventually, he stopped showing up completely, as did most of the others who would deliver from door to door in our neighborhood. I asked around about what happened to the travelling salesmen, but usually got vague answers. Everyone just moved on. I imagined him rolling his cart back to his native village, where things had probably changed but not as dramatically, and working the small alleys of his hometown, shouting away his specialties into the early evening sky.

Sun shower

I walk without direction

with little to guide me 

upon a street so solemn

but a silent blue sky 

within a frame of bruised darkness 

The patterns of the approaching clouds

a puzzle without solution 

My feet planted firmly on the ground

existence uprooted

escaping with the wind 

into the certainty

of the oncoming rain

Chain Letters

When the fence went up around the outskirts of our village, I did not think much about it. It was not our personal property and had little to do with me. I still had my relatives and family, the ones who would protect me from the dangers of the outside world.

I would play with my friends, leaping and bounding through the thickened sand dunes dragging my fingers over the metal chain links. I was told not to touch the fence for fear that I would cut my finger across the protruding metal. It was an adventure to run across the sands. We even tried once to dig to the bottom of the fence but one of the adults from our village came over running and shouting.
“If you ever try that again, I’ll shoot you myself,” he thundered before turning us back to our homes.

When guards started patrolling the other side of the fence, we would always run over to the edges of our side, pointing in excitement. I made friends with one of them, who offered me pencils, smiles, and whatever he could wherever I saw him. I asked him once why he carried a gun.
“Have you killed any bad guys? I have one just like that,” I told him boldly, pointing at his gun and smiling, trying to show off. He didn’t smile back for the first time since I had met him. I forgot to tell him mine was plastic.

The links in the fence felt thicker as I grew older, less malleable to the touch of my fingers and more stubborn, more fixed than they seemed when I was a child. There were holes through the fence that were patched up with reinforced metals, and more warning placards as the years went on. Once the watch towers went up, we stopped visiting the outskirts of our village. It was unnecessary and unsafe. My parents scolded me when I told them I had a friend on the other side. I wasn’t allowed to go back to the fence until I was much older.

I recently visited the area. There were no guards on duty and the towers seemed all but abandoned. The holes in the chain links were not patched. I wanted to run back and call all of my old friends to tell them it was safe, that we could go back there, that there was no more danger. I looked down at my phone but I had no one to call who would share in my excitement. There were hardly any people left anymore in my village.

In between the rain drops

I wasn’t sure if she knew I existed or if she was sure that I didn’t. I would walk past everyday like clockwork. She happened to be on my route to work and appeared in a hundred fragments, every day more beautiful than the next. I was usually dressed the same, in my work clothes having achieved a false sense of purpose in my walk. My intents and ambitions had long faded and I wasn’t sure if there was any fire left within my dulled, tired eyes.

Still, I would walk and look over, embarrassed but mostly curious. Beauty had long surpassed my understanding. I stared without knowing, giving away what little I could hide from the world in those moments steeped in my slow march. She was a clear patch on a day where clouds were the norm. I thought I could appreciate her like wind blowing through on a warm day at the beach, just enough to let me know that there was a little hope yet to spark a small fire in my belly and bring back the beat to my slowly ticking but long-buried heart. All I ever had to do when I saw her was straighten my shoulders and come out of my slouch, just for a few seconds so I could stand tall and walk past absorbing the rays of beauty the day had to offer.

The Sun, Moon, and Stars

When I was a young boy, I made many friends from many different castes, backgrounds and religions. Truck drivers from the north would let me hop into the front seat and honk the loud horn. Shopkeepers from the west would give me treats and send me on my way. The other children, regardless of their backgrounds, would always attend my birthday parties and bring presents. I managed to convince everyone onto my side without doing much. There was, however, a workman who lived near our home who I could never befriend.

He strode as thin as a bean pole, usually with a sickle, or an axe, or shovel, and always wearing a brown uniform. He would cover his head with a rag to carry stones or buckets or other items on top of his head. I could never bear to look into his eyes for more than a couple of seconds. The first few times that I saw him walking down the small asphalt road, I just stared. He was lanky and strange.

One day, he caught me playing with a shovel left behind in the office workers shed. I quickly put it back where it belonged, but he laughed.
“So, you think you can dig a hole? How deep do you think you’ll get before you get tired?”, he asked. I didn’t know what to respond but foolish pride took over and I claimed I could dig to the other side of the earth.
“Show me,” he said.

Before long, I was tired, but I had dug a hole with the man watching. It was the same height as me and not very wide. When I looked up, he was standing over me. He kicked a little mud into the hole.
“Have you ever been buried alive?” he asked. His watery grey eyes peered into mine. I was frightened.
“No,” I said.
“I was, once.” he said. “Every time I tried to dig up the mud and throw it out, they threw twice as much in,” he said. He was still standing over me looking down. I couldn’t think of what to say. I wanted to get out.
“Wha…what did you do?” I managed to blurt out.
“I stopped fighting until they thought I was buried and gone. Then, I clawed my way out later,” he said, looking more frightening than ever. “I was about as old as you were.”
I scrambled my legs together, using the force of my hands to propel myself and jump out. I ran until I got home.
My last memory of him standing there is with a shining religious pendant dangling off his chest, just before I darted.
“You barely dug a few feet,” he had said, laughing as I ran.

I told a friend about the incident and he laughed.
“Man, don’t you know his story? He was beaten badly in the ’92 riots. They said he went crazy. I think he’s harmless. But I’d stay away from them if I was you.”
“Who is them?” I asked sincerely, and slightly worried.
My friend was a few years older. He put his arm around my shoulder.
“You have many friends,” he said, consoling me. “Don’t worry about that man.”

Live Laugh Love

Johnny ran fast as a bolt of lightning across the yard. He had a stack of cash in his hands but more importantly, his father’s undivided attention. Johnny ran and ran until he reached the end of the road, where beyond a barrier leading out to a small cliff, he fell into a small outlet, miraculously avoiding a hundred-foot drop in the process. He was just beyond the reach of his father’s helping hand. The fire brigade was called and before long, a scene of drama had erupted over the neighborhood, accompanied by flashing lights and police cars.

The firemen looked down onto Johnny as if he was a cat stuck in a tree. He would need a little coaxing and a helping hand to get back up from the cliff. Johnny stood on the edge of the cliff laughing. His father watched horrified, an eye on his son and the other on his pile of money. There were over a thousand dollars in Johnny’s hands. The men kept asking Johnny to hold still and Johnny kept refusing. He thought it was all a game. The mischief rose within him the more attention he received.

With a little planning, the men decided to place a small ladder to reach Johnny and to pull him back by quickly grabbing his arm. They executed the plan in swift action but as they grabbed Johnny, who was trying to count the money to keep himself entertained and had his back turned to the men, he let out a laugh and hurled the twenty-dollar bills across the gorge. A rainfall of bills made their way down into the valley as Johnny made his way up into safety. His father let out a scream and Johnny let out a spluttering giggle. This was the most fun game he had played with his father in a long time.